What a strange illusion it is to suppose that beauty is goodness.

There is something about this quote that pains me. Maybe it is the truth of it. A very basic and obvious truth but still one that unsettles me. At this age, I should not be surprised that people who are considered traditionally attractive are given more allowances, are more easily forgiven and are generally favored. I should not be bothered that people who are considered traditionally unattractive are treated as though they are invisible, looked over for partnership and treated more harshly.
But it does bother me. I wish this very childish wish, that we could see each other for what we are and look beyond hair texture, pant size, height, complexion and every other superficial thing. 
The most disturbing part is not that these shallow traits prevent us from seeing the goodness in others but that they prevent us even from seeing the goodness in ourselves. In a society that has created and valued impossible and ridiculous standards of beauty, it is a revolutionary act to love ourselves. 

art and the human condition

Yesterday I posted a clip of Science of Sleep. I love that movie because it explores that world between reality and dreams.  When I was younger, I would often have what I called “live dreams.” I could be in any situation and concurrently an entirely different situation would also be playing out. It could involve the same characters that were in the room but they would be acting out a completely different scenarios. I could distinguish the two and my made up reality was for my own entertainment – a way to satisfy an active imagination.

Michel Gondry, who directed Science of Sleep (and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind- another gem!), also directed some of my favorite music videos. His art has always made me feel more comfortable about my imagination and the way I see the world. To me, the best thing about art is that it helps us realize that we are not alone.

When I am in a museum, looking at a painting from two hundred years ago and it is able to invoke an incredible feeling in me, I feel connected to the artist and feel that I am a part of a continuum. It calms me to know that centuries ago, someone felt the same things I feel and was able to capture it in a way that I could understand and relate to.

I feel the same way with music and books. I think good art has the ability to capture something universal and show it in a way that anyone can see it and say, that was for me, that speaks to who I am and how I feel. Michel Gondry does that for me.

Sleep and I’ll Be Your Mirror

Today was one of those days which I was so tired. I just floated through it and have somehow found myself sitting on my couch with a computer in my lap as I try not to drift off to sleep.

All of last night I had one of those strange experiences where you are in a strange dream state where you are not really sleeping. I would get up and walk around but still felt like I was in the reality that was happening in my dream. I was having a nice dream so it wasn’t that bad but it was unsettling because I knew in the far recesses of mind that what I thought was happening was not happening.

Here are three interesting facts about dreams:

  • Animals dream too. Armadillos dream the most.
  • We can only see faces we have actually seen in our dreams. The face may be the face of someone we saw in passing and do not remember but our mind does not make up faces on its own. 
  • The average person spends six years of her life dreaming.

Here is a video for one of my favorite songs with clips from one of my favorite movies. Please watch it and be happy.

peanut butter jelly time!

Via random website.

You know what the worst feeling is? Spending all morning cleaning and working while singing its peanut butter jelly time thinking of a peanut butter jelly lunch. Then when its time to lunch, opening the fridge to find out there is no peanut butter jelly!

You know what the best feeling is? Checking the cabinets to find something else and finding a family size of no stir natural peanut butter and raspberry preserves!! You know what this means…

Where he at?
Where he at?
Where he at?
Where he at?

There he go!
There he go!
There he go!
There he go!

Peanut butter jelly!
Peanut butter jelly!

Peanut butter jelly!
Peanut butter jelly!

Do the peanut butter jelly, peanut butter jelly!
Do the peanut butter jelly, peanut butter jelly!
Do the peanut butter jelly, peanut butter jelly!
Do the peanut butter jelly, peanut butter jelly!

Peanut butter jelly with a baseball bat!

Peanut butter jelly with a baseball bat!
Peanut butter jelly with a baseball bat!
Peanut butter jelly with a baseball bat!