Gratitude.

I woke up this morning and was so aware of my body. I feel young and strong. I take a deep breath. It is easy. I look at my hands. My fingers stretch out and close in a ball. There is no pain. I look around. I see the sun pouring into the room. I can see the details on my dresser that is far away. My sight is good. I hear the birds chirping outside our window. I hear a lawn mower in the distance. My heart beat is steady. I get out of bed and my legs are sturdy. I have a drink of water and it feel it cooling me as it goes down.

I am 28 years old and I can’t believe I ever hated my body. Thank you God for giving me this healthy, wonderful treasure.

Faiz Ahmed Faiz


When I was a teenager my cousin used to recite her favorite Urdu poems to me and I would struggle to understand them. Although I speak Urdu fluently, a lot of the vocabulary in Urdu poetry is beyond me. As I get older, I am trying harder to read Urdu poetry and understand it in the native language. In the meantime, I still love reading good translations.  One of my favorite Urdu poets is Faiz Ahmed Faiz. I found this great translation of one of my favorite poems of his (listen to it here):
Craving your love, he gambled away
both this world and the next.
Look – he is leaving now –
having spent the night in grief.
And the taverns are deserted,
and the wine glasses are upset;
hurt by your departure
even the Spring has turned away.
Forgetting you was a reprieve,
but it did not last.
Now we have seen how far
even God can be trusted.
The world seduced us,
made us exiles from your memory;
day by day, the business of living
proved more deceptive than your love.
And then, today, she smiled,
forgetting herself,
and the heart, so long unused,
began to beat with a new urgency.
Another great one:
Your sorrow came, searching for life,
But those who would have died for you are gone,
Those who would have bowed their heads when you passed
Have all gone their own ways.
And the night is gone too,
Annoyed with you for keeping it waiting;
And those who came to console me have left,
Angry with me because I would not cry.
There is no question of love now,
I cannot complain, cannot say what grieves me,
I have no suggestions to make
In the tyranny of your love
My heart has lost all its rights.
I was the one
Whose shirt turned red with the blood from the streets;
These are the stains that I wore proudly
All the way to my beloved’s house.
But passion is out of style now,
And this rope, these gallows, are no longer needed;
Those who were proud to be accused of love
Have all vanished like criminals.
And one last one!
That which then was ours, my love,
don’t ask me for that love again.
The world then was gold, burnished with light –
and only because of you. That’s what I had believed.
How could one weep for sorrows other than yours?
How could one have any sorrow but the one you gave?
So what were these protests, these rumors of injustice?
A glimpse of your face was evidence of springtime.
The sky, wherever I looked, was nothing but your eyes.
If You’d fall into my arms, Fate would be helpless.
All this I’d thought, all this I’d believed.
But there were other sorrows, comforts other than love.
The rich had cast their spell on history:
dark centuries had been embroidered on brocades and silks.
Bitter threads began to unravel before me
as I went into alleys and in open markets
saw bodies plastered with ash, bathed in blood.
I saw them sold and bought, again and again.
This too deserves attention. I can’t help but look back
when I return from those alleys –what should one do?
And you still are so ravishing –what should I do?
There are other sorrows in this world,
comforts other than love.
Don’t ask me, my love, for that love again.

chairs

Would you put a transit chair in your house? 
 I want this so badly for my balcony.

I am going to take a picture of this chair to Pakistan, have 5,000 made and become a millionaire.

Genius.
I feel lame for liking anything from DWR but I always think I would get so much work
done in this chair! And I would need to be a doing a lot of work to afford this chair!

love.

via IndianFoodsCo

Today on the way home from work, I picked up two samosas. I could smell them the whole way home and  as soon as I got in the apartment, I sat down at the table and ate mine right up. Still hungry and wanting more of that goodness, I eyed the plate I set down for Feraz. I could eat it and he would never even know I had brought one for him. But I didn’t.

That’s love.

think pink!

I don’t know if it is the cherry  blossoms or just the signs of spring in general but all I want to do is wear pink! Here are some of my favorite pinks right now.



I love the pink pants I’m seeing everywhere.



How about some hot pink nails if the pants are too bold?



This J.Crew skirt with a classic black and white stripe top

could be a summer uniform.



 A good t-shirt is underated.
If all else fails, I like to let my shoes do all the work.